karma

This is a poor time to be writing but I think I feel better if i get some emotion off my chest.

I really enjoyed reading week. The two weeks gave me a chance to catch up on some sleep (actually, to store some rest for the coming weeks) and not to do much, which is a blessing. I thought about what I've accomplished at UBC - which is not much - and I tried to reprioritize. At the start of the term I had organized things into four categories that I wanted to focus on - Time, Health, People, and Initiative - and I'm pretty sure I didn't do all that I wanted to do in any of them. Coming out of the reading week, I really felt I was still acting poorly with my classmates. (This sounds somewhat of a strong statement but I don't think I have time to nuance right now, just know this should be taken with a grain of salt.) Plus I felt even more weak. So People and Health need to be my primary foci for the little time I have left.

For some reason, Skits Night 2010 frustrated me. I thought it was pretty special how our class - and really, just a few people in our class - managed to pull together a very well-done skit that was pretty funny. I don't have issues with class participation necessarily, as I can hardly be a hypocrite here. But I still was upset with myself for feeling somewhat inhibited, or shy, or left out of the socializing. I'm very happy with my group of friends, but at the same time, shouldn't I feel comfortable walking around to talk to people? Why is it difficult?

Something else that frustrated me was the lack of respect (noise) people afforded the 4th year skit. I thought our third year class was guilty of this still, and somewhat interesting as no one respected our skit last year due to poor sound quality. I don't really care how drunk you are, but you shouldn't be having your private conversations in the middle of another class's skit. Poor karma I guess for the current fourth years, but just something to think about.